Phosgene here .
now blah blah blah i dont care i got banned cuz i dont play knight
i just want to write smth before i am gone .
this is an article published in israeli computerhi-tech magazine called Online .
i translated it from hebrew to english so please read it
if ur respect me(and even if u dont , its for your own good)please read it ALL !
"I played 18-20 hours a day untill i fell out from the university" ¤ "Games are the only thing that keeps my sanity" ¤ "I'm a gamer widow" ¤ Computer games addiction is getting worse and psychologists claim that it can be as deadly as drug and alchohol addiction
After drug and alchohol theres a new and deadly addiction coming : Computer games . the list of victims includes a 28 year-old male from North Korea that died from a heart attack after playing StarCraft for 50 hours in a row and a 13 years-old from China who jumped from a 24-floors building to join the heroes of WarCraft after playing it for 36 hours . another two incidents happened in China : a 16-years old boy killed his uncle to get money to buy games , and a man who stabbed his friend after the last one sold his vitrual character in the game The Legend of Mir 3 .
Sounds funny ? not really . new research proves that in computer game addiction there are all the properties of drug addiction. "We have the addicted man , families and friends crying for help", says the researcher , Sabin Groser from the University of Medicine in Berlin , Germeny . in an article published in NewScientist.com says Groser that the aseertained men showed classic addiction acts when pictures of thier favourite games were showen to them : they wanted despertly to play it and thought they would feel better after playing .
In a special day about this subject in University of Tel Aviv qouted the clinic psychologist Ran Parlman different research , and by that research 15% of the gamers playing internet games define themselves as addicted to the game , 30% said they are keep playing although they dont enjoy the game and 18% admitted the game hurts thier functioning . other research found that almost one quarter of the gamers play thier game more than 40 hours a week .
If u want to check if you are addicted , go to Olganon.org where you would need to answer some questions such as :"would you rather log into an internet game over meeting real-life friends?" , "are most of your friends gamers , who hang out together mainly in net games?" , "are you trying to find ways to play even when you are not home ?" , "can you predict how long will the game go?" , "did you play longer than what you predicted ?" , "do you denial being addicted but in certian way still feel that you need to play or keeping your online character?"
Gamer Chris answer yes to all of these questions. " I Havn't played much as a kid" he writes on Olganon.org forums under the nickname of WastedLife."In 1994 i was in the second year of my doctorant when an adventure game hit me like a train . i hav'nt slept(well , 3 hours seemed neccessary) and lived on donats and ice tea . it lasted 3 months , in which i played 18-20 hours a day , until i fell from the university . my family was so worried , till in several times they had to call the cops . finally i was forced to come back home . my carrier went to the trash , but in '94 computers were getting popular and hell i had about 2,000 hours of experience with one , did i ? so i found my first job in computer support and later i became a programmer . years went by and i played from while to while , but most of the time i was with my family and friends . it lasted until 1997 , then i started to pull everyone off me . i stopped going out with friends , i havnt answer my phone calls . I played all the time , but in reasonable amount . i kept my work and played at weekends . but slowly things were getting worse . finally i started to drink because of the game...at the beginning 6 cans of bear for a weekend , two years later 12 and going higher . weekend of three days required 30 cans of bear and weekend of two - atleast 18 . at the start i drunk to be able to play , but at the end i wondered if i wasnt playing to be able to drink . i realised i have a problem . i tried to stop a few times , but i was always getting broken . the first time i tried to quit i deleted my hard disc and took the computer to work . it lasted about a month , till i realised i can bring it back . i cut the keyboard cable three times . everytime it was enough for a month or two , but then i would spend 40$ and buy a new keyboard . in 2000 i even broke my computer . it felt good , but a year later i bought a new one . the last two years were worst . i play 50 hours a week . it must stop . its redicoulos , i dont really enjoy the game anymore - its just something i have to do . addiction is a wierd thing . you can see how deadly and stupid it is , but you just cant take control of yourself . you want to stop so bad , but at the same time you to do it more than anything else . insane !!
"Now its my last chance . i decided to quit last monday but i played at saturday and sunday , so i would quit this monday . i would also cancel my internet connection and give the computer to someone . if not , this would ruin me . thanks for listening ."
Chris got addicted to the popular net game EverQuest of Sony , a game that sometimes is being play by hundreds of thousends at once . its a fantasy game where each gamer is represented by a character he makes for himself : an elf , a troll or a warrior . to get forward in the game you have to kill "weeker" characters that has less weapons , less experience or less strength and earn "Experience points " . the only problem is that this game never ends , and the player can get higher and higher . "its a game which connects people one to the other , and all the rest is secondary", says the game developer Geofry Zatkin. "we built a world where you cant win , and it does not ends . we are trying to copy the real life " .
In a research called "Ever On EverQuest" , Michael Hiens is trying to prove that this is the exact reason of why EverQuest is at the top of the list of the most addicting games - 20% of players report playing 60-80 hours a week . Hiens says one of the ways to make people be addicted is the inability to stop or save the game : in EverQuest , if a player is trying to stop playing he has to find a "safe spot" to "park" in it - a proccess that can last hours .
to play EverQuest you have to pay 14$ a month , and by Hiens , Sony has a clear interest of getting players to the situation of "i cant stop" .
Diana Silverman Clar , head of the Gamology program at the Multi-general school in Beit-Berl(Israel) , agrees that sometimes companies are "planting" elements which make people get addicted to thier games . "just like movie creators , games designers knows what effects will make the player play it again ." she says . she also says that there are known situations that makes the gamer play it again. "these situations are usually connected , by addicted gamers , to "joy" . people pull alot of satisfaction from the game and want to repeat it , like using a drug . they are like little kids who want thier perants to repeat the same story , with the same drama and the same way ".
Psychologist Parlman explains that games are built in a certian way . at the beginning the player is getting stronger every short amount of time . when the player is getting more "into" the game , he has to put more energy and efforts to gain "experience" . this theory is being confirmed from other source , a research lately published in the magazine American Science .
the researchers Eirwing Biederman and Edoward Wessel says that a moment of joy in the game causes the release of a natural drug from the brain , a drug reminds Opioid , and by the researchers the brain needs that drug .
By the way , a lot of games are built with a huge number of levels and difficult levels . this means that if the gamer is more addicted , the game is giving him an over-increasing feeling of thriling and joy for a few months and even more .
Like any other addiction , even when it comes to games , the addicted man's inviorment is affected as well . a research took place in Taiwan showed that the longer the gamers play , the poorer thier inter-personal relationship and bigger thier level of society fear .
"I'm a gamer "widow" for two years . we got married not long ago , but my husband got married with his game , World of Warcraft , which he started to play as soon as the game was released . he got addicted to two games at the past , and i seriously tried to keep him from getting addicted again , but it lasted until Christmas . he convinced me to let him sign to the game and i let him " , says a female call herself Lioness at GamerWidow.com . "at the start it was'nt that bad , but quickly it became a real addiction . i talked with him about it all the time and i was very angry . then he realised i should play it too , so i can understand him . i decided our marrige worth it , so i joined him . it didnt took alot of time till i got addicted as well . i found myself one day 'waking up' after 12 hours of playing . i realised that in this week i did not clean the house , i didnt pay my bills and i didnt answer my mom phone calls . when i realised what has the game dont to me , i immediatly quitted . i found myself dreaming on the game , with non-wanted pulses of getting back to the game . i started to understand my husband but when i saw myself at this situation i realised how sick was it and the addiction disgusted me . i didnt believe i could turn into this kind of person . thank god we have no kids ! ".
Clar is not surprised from that story : "there is an increase in the addiction of women at the age of 30-40 who is playing arcade games and puzles " , she says , and adds that the prediction for 2010 is that until than the number of gamers will be increased by 50% .
a women named Debi , for example , got addicted to "Solitaire" ."in the past i asked my husband to remove all the games from the computer , but now i want to take control of the pulse . i wanted to be able to play a game sometimes so badly . i know the game is provides me mental escaping . this affected my family , and my husband was the first to call it an 'addiction' . my children want to play when they see me do it . they are waiting so i can finish my 'one last game' " , she writes at OLGA .
"yesterday is a good example to my problem : i had a day off , first one since a long time ago , and i was excited to complete my tasks(cleaning the table , pay the bills etc.) . i lost a game , and decided that if i would play i would surly win . when i won i wanted to play another game to increase to total winning score in the statistics . before i realised what happened , morning went by and i havnt done anything , and it happened too many times . again i felt disappointed and mad about myself for wasting so many precious time" .
but it seems that sometimes its the feeling of faliour that can develope plesure : researchers checked gamers playing Nintendo Game Cube while both succedding and failling . by the researchers , the checked players had more fun and joy from moments they failed then in moments they succeded . the researchers explain that when you fail in the game Super Monkey Ball 2 a monkey is sent to the space ."theres is some feeling of joy coming with it , in a way that is opposite to our intuations " , said the researchers .
Is there anyway to stop ? player Zorph writes : "I'm worthless . the games are the only think that keeps my sanity . when i dont play , im in fear of when im going to play it again . i'm always pissed and screaming on everybody . the only time i feel popular is when i play . im playing in a competetive way , so lot of people hate me . sometimes i agree with them and sometimes i offend them . i cant control myself . i play everyday , the whole day . i drink energy drinks and once in a week hanging at the local internet-cafe . they know me pretty well . im addicted to alot of games . i don't think i could ever stop " .
some people may not like what i am saying...
but what the fuck are u spending ur life on ?
in front of a fucking MONITOR ?
when i look back into the past i am getting sick of how i acted , how i actually thought twice if i should go out with my friends or stay on good exp party...guh...
why the fuck do u keep play KNIGHT ?
this game has gone way too far .
lets put the cards on the table .
its a P2P .
i dont give a fuck if u say "P2P u pay to get into server screen" , wow , in knight i cant enter any server when im in server screen so WHAT THE FUCK is the difference ?
u pay 8.95$ a month(atleast...not to talk about gold users...)for what ?
for servers that crash , for retarded turks that have completely over taken this game ?
for the worst costumer support i have ever seen in my life ?
for a company that puts the money alot before thier costumers ?
when will u realize that u ARE addicted to the fucking game ?
otherwise what can explain the fact that u are suffering and u ENJOY it ?
anyway , most of u will think "what the hell is this nuts talking about , we are having fun" , but hey , lets face it...
why everyday i see a new post about "wtf is this rollback?" or "BRING THE SCROLLS BACK" or smth like that ?
u are not having fun , it just became a part of ur damn life...
not to talk about to consequences of u being infront of a monitor so many hours.....
u soon realize how the computer became a good friends of urs when it actually should be ur servant...
u are gaining wieght ... yes u do , even if u dont think u do .
u cant eat blah blah blah drink bear blah blah blah not move and remain skinny ...
anyway what i am saying is , try to look from the side about this situation...u pay for a game u dont like and even harms u , mentally and physicaly...
just think alot of time and you will realize how sick what have u done were...
one day you will understand you have been pathetic , i am just trying to make this day come faster .