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Dear doc, plxplx gift strong advice. Im as epic in rl as i am in forums or ingame. My main concern is will i be motivated or whatevered enough to keep doing what i do now, for years.
My kewl story starts with me quiting my first school 4 years ago. It was hard for me, id been there eversince first grade, my great great grandpa founded that school. I left coz few idiots from its "court" thought that they can do what they please, since its a small town in a island of 10k ppl, getting new teachers there aint easy so many of them thought they are untouchables. The day i went to pick up my things, i was told im gona end up in a dump. So since it was before xmas, i would have had hard time to go to another school. That led me to get a job, i worked in a lumber mill, doing the work that only polish slaves do nowdays. 12 hour shifts and hard physical labor. Back then i made a promise never to do anything like that ever again for a few lousy coins.
During that time, i thought, i only want the best for myself. So that led me into doing entree exams for a private school. And oh snap, i got in, with full scholarship. Although i had pretty crappy grades back in my old school, i got straight A's in a private schools that has a MAJOR quality dif with the old school. It was hard tho, since i had to move away from home and all that shit. But i made it.
I rly loved my literature/rhetorics teacher. He was sooo full of life, amazing thoughts and charisma. That made me wanna become as him. I started taking classes about literature from uni, during that time. Another thing i rly loved, was all kinds of human behavior and brain thingys. Wich led me taking sociology and psychology courses. Tho i was rly in between those 2 if i had to make a firm choice, i made a promise (again) to pursue both of them. But i put the main focus on my quest for becoming a literature teacher.
But all that time there was a ghost haunting me, when i was still a mini magyk, i wanted to be a general xD. Before quiting school and all that i wanted to go to army school. Last year i was drafted. I went there knowing that if it works out great, i might give it a shot. But it turned out being rly boring. Tho it had alot to do witht he fact i was in pretty dull patalion. Most of them were just army brats, trying to move on fast enough. My company chief was a douche. My team leader was prolly ghey. Only few officers were awsome guys. So i was like: "frak this, i dont arse myself to work with all of these idiots." That was kind of an end to that.
But, during that time i made alot of friends there, few of them made me read all sorts of business books. Suddenly i was like whooooah, that shit is actually fraking great. It seemed to have all sorts of things i liked. Building up my own business empire, that idea sounded even more hotter than +9 lighting erenion. I could have been everything i ever dreamed about, a teacher, a general, a builder, an authority and god knows what else. So as soon as i got out, i started to follow my evul plan. I knew it wouldnt be easy. Its a long process, I dont wanna create some new product, sell it to google and spend my life wasting those billions. Its about the creation process.
So far, im in early stages to build up my knowlage and exp. I dont plan to start a business and see it fail 2 years later. I wanna be well prepared. Im studying banking in a pretty good university atm. Been doing that for 3 months and i like it. The plan is not getting some degree out of it, i just wanna learn atm. Im gona change the subject next year, prolly to business managment. Currently im taking alot of extra courses about everything, starting from real estate and finishing with accounting. I dont have a detailed plan but i got some basis maped out. Im already starting few mini projects to test my skills and get some real exp. Tho i havent spend a long time on this, i love it.
But the problem is, i love it the same way i loved previous things. Maybe ill find some other thing in few years. Tho my current studies may have some use, maybe i find then i had wasted my life.
Pls doctor psy, halp me. Do u think i got the stamina to love this, till im in my 90's? Do u think it is smth iv made for? Do u, dear psy, picture me in the cover of financial times, in about 15 years?
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